Good Morning,

This is the first of many blog postings on Eating Freedom. 

Today I have a measure of consciousness with weight and eating that most people would envy.  I am comfortable in my 149lb body and usually free from cravings or comp0ulsions to eat in a destructive fashion.  But it wasn’t always that way.  For the first 30 years of my life eating and weight compulsions dominated my every thought and experience. 

As a child I stole and hoarded food.  As a preteen I used food to soothe and socialize.  In my teens I would eat myself sick and then eat more until I passed out.  The older I got the more diverse my obsessions and addictions became, using anything that promised to make me feel better. Nothing did and soon suicide or dieting was all I thought about.

At 29 years old I was 300lbs, chronically depressed, diagnosed with chronic fatigue, eating out of control and gaining weight daily.  Then I got it!   I was acting like an addict. As soon as I realized this I started looking at the food and weight thing differently.

I learned to deal with all the facets of the problem, including the biological realities, my lost connection to my soul, my obsessive mind and my runaway emotions.  Today I have healed to an amazing degree, literally rewiring most of my brain and body.  You can too!

I had an experience yesterday that reminded me of how things used to be and decided it would be a good one to open my blogging with.  I was in a rush but as usual had a plan about what I would eat, because that generally gives me more freedom. 

Well I picked up the planned food and ate it while in a long line up for some “quick” car service.  I felt awful immediately.

 I had tried a new “healthy product” from a major grocery store and realized that it must have something in it that either was really bad for my body or interacted in a bad way with the other food I had eaten and left me not only feeling lousy but craving more!

My still sometimes addictive brain thought I should “finish it” because it tasted good and then just not buy anymore.  Luckily more of my brain than not, has been rewired and I have the consciousness to choose freedom today so let it go entirely for now and for the future. 

I am so grateful for today that I can disregard the hype about “healthy” products, listen to my body and act the feedback it gives me.

Wishing you all a calm and conscious day

Nancy Anderson Dolan

WiseHeartWeightMastery.com